I need to cut through my ideas and see if I can get one to surface. I am about a week behind where I’d like to be. I need to edit and catch up.

An Enormous bowl, painted on the wall, on canvas. – Life is not a bowl of cherries thought/domestic bliss.

In front a Large bowel made from laws and precedents- a strong thing is made up of many layers.

It’s too shallow, it is what I did before I need to surface deeper in the argument.

The research is all there, the ideas are all there and methodology is all there.

– if any are rotten or eroded laws (by thoughts, changes, evomentsl curtual moral) this might produce gaps and holes-light shining though -hope light at the end of the tunnel. Japanese mending techniques. Boro

In Japan, rather than trying to hide or disguise repairs to pottery or ceramics, they highlight it by mending it with gold as part of its (honourable) past or history. It’s called Kintsugi (golden joinery) or Kintsukuroi (golden repair). I thought it might suit this bowl of mine so I tried it. My friend Alan has reminded me on in his post.

I need to work through this on paper today and prototype Monday pm.

I am about a week behind.

I need to do -two portfolios and artist statements. -One aimed at painting and the other at contemporary practise -Adam advised-then review, look at what next, where next. If teaching or the other ideas are still on my agenda may be I should combine them- Investigation needed.

I’m divided I want to explore the possibilitys of what painting can be and who it’s for using while sharing the skills I have. I don’t want to play-work-practice (PWP) completely in isolation and need to pick what and where I do it carefully without completely stalling. I hope to combine.

I had a tutorial with Clare on Thursday. I prepared for it and instead of clarity I opened up a whole avenue of new ideas. Make notes, take what’s useful and shelve rest. Not being in the studio with my head in work mode has allowed me to go back to my natural state of happily disorganised meandering.

I need to focus and direct rewrite plan and push though.

-Clare asked where I was in the work. I found this very useful. Also the confirmation of my continuing interest in the materiality of my work-

Matriality-I am very inspired materials and also by the painters who experimented and found meaning in the way they used them.GHR/Tapies/Bradford.

Tapies talked about his name meaning wall and how that influenced him.

My name Chalk- hence Chalkie- is an obvious connection to natural mediums and gesso.

I see where my studio cohort are in their work why am I not evident in mine?

May be I am and I need to find out where.

I am struggling a bit with my identity– as it carries connotations and so many are things I don’t like.

That in is self makes me angry, im not sure its constructive.

Mark Bradford said that’s why he looks out- explore.

Canvas– size of idea not sure I’ll have the time. Anna said book it in – TS also.